Like nobody else will do it for me but him. I can’t eat, I can’t think, I can’t breathe, my heart’s constantly racing, I’m in a bad mood all the time, I find myself not wanting to do anything but talk to him, I snap at the people around me and I find myself not wanting to converse and distancing myself from everyone but him. I swore to myself I wouldn’t message him if he didn’t start the conversation first but I’m about to break. I’m typically more composed than this but he’s bringing out my worst, the insecure and unstable side of me. And him being so nonchalant is driving me to the brink of insanity. I’m terrified of embarrassing myself but I feel like a waterfall ready to pour my emotions. I haven’t been able to think of anything but him for the past 2 days. We hardly spoke yesterday and it bugged me.

It’s been a few days and since then we’ve texted here and there (him starting a conversation once and me starting the next one which I NEVER DO.) but I’m losing my mind.

and he told me it was because he was too nervous to speak to me(?) but whatever. Mind you, I’m shocked this dude even liked me seeing as he would ignore me, etc. He doesn’t say anything for a few seconds but then tells me that’s untrue. He told me he always wondered about me which was weird because why would he bother to think of me when I forgot he existed? I mention how since it’s been so long he doesn’t feel the same way about me. Mostly talking about past relationships and such and telling me most of his exes were placeholders. He took the initiative of messaging me and we facetimed. Recently reconnected with a dude (Pluto) who liked me (Moon) years ago.

Pluto trine moon synastry obsession